Hope

"We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars."

Too often in life we get beat down. Too often in life things don't turn out. But every now and then something truly fantastic will happen and you will forget about the past grief and tears. Hope will be shining by your side, bright and polished. It is in those moments that you will remember hope was always there. Maybe tarnished and dull but there. A faint glimmer to get you through the dark, find your way home. She was there then and she will be again. When you think you are utterly alone and nothing is right or good in your life, she will be there. All you have to do is reach out and grab her hand. Don't let go. Don't ever lose HOPE.

Should I Stay Or Should I Go?

Men. I have come to the conclusion, in my own flash of brilliance, that men are a lot like a bacteria. Well, mine anyway. You come in contact with them just once and BAM!! You have athletes foot!! Can't get rid of it. Nope. Can't get rid of them. Nope. Even when it is so blatantly obvious that yeah, we love each other but eventually one of us is going to strangle the other one.

Oh male pride. Why can't you guys just shake hands and move on? Take care of the offspring, if there are any and be at peace with life? Why does it have to always be If I Can't Have You, No One Can? Carpe Diem! Keep On Truckin'!! Don't Let The Door Hitcha Where The Good Lord Splitcha!! Hit The Road Jack!!

I could go on and on.

I guess it is just meant to be hard. Life, relationships, being a girl. I will be labeled the bitch when I part ways. Thank you. It was nice. Love you but I can't stand to look at your face or be around your negative attitude anymore. Please let me just walk away before I hurt you or myself. On that note, before you hurt me anymore. We both did wrong and we both did right but my heart truly isn't in it the way you want it to be. I love you because you have been a decent dad and a good provider. I didn't mean to use you and you will be rewarded but I just can't anymore. Just can't.

So yeah. That is where I am right now. What can you do though? Find a place of peace within yourself and you will be ok with things until they can be changed....... chanced.

My Blog

This is my first blog. I want people to read it. I want people to come back again and again. It is real. It is all me. My life is crazy and sometimes I love it but then there are other times I hate it. In the end I would not change a thing. Everything I have been through, good and bad, has brought me to where I am today and I try my hardest to show my appreciation. I love my friends. Truly and dearly. I adore Bobby. I find myself hoping everyday he feels the same way about me. I think he is fascinating and brilliant and soulful and so good looking. Looking at his artwork, I find myself holding my breath. It's beautiful and captivating. I wish I could talk to him more often but there's always the hope for tomorrow right? I understand the people in my life are here for a reason and some may not be there tomorrow. I know my friends that have moved on were meant to be there at that time. To teach me something and maybe to learn something from me.